If you are new here, let me introduce myself. My name is Seska Lee— one of the internet’s early Amateur porn performers. I began my adventures in adult entertainment back in 1998 and I thoroughly enjoyed them. In 2010 I officially retired and took ten years off for other pursuits. But now I’m back!
As I get close to my 50th birthday I’ve decided to make a comeback of sorts. I think it’s rather exciting to explore and document my sensuality as it exists today. While the media and platforms have changed, my values haven’t. I still have the same hopes that had me writing this mission statement more than 20 years ago.
I want to share my creative and sexual side with the world, to help change archaic beliefs about women and sex by being an example of authentic and empowered feminist sexuality, and to hopefully bring pleasure to the lives of others.
— Seska Lee 1998
Why Porn To Begin With?
Every step I’ve ever taken has brought to me where I’m today. Though when I graduated university with two BAs under my belt (Child Studies & Psychology) and began working as an educational consultant I never imagined that a few years down the line I’d be a successful adult entertainer making her mark as a writer and sex educator.
What happened was that while I enjoyed my teaching work, I felt something was missing in my life. You know, that spark? I wasn’t feeling it. Then the internet started to heat up in the late 1990s. I began discovering alternative sexual lifestyle communities such as the Montreal fetish scene and swinger clubs. I did a tonne of reading and participated on many a message board, learning about open relationship models, sexuality and amateur homemade porn. It created that missing spark in me and I saw the opportunity to radically change my life and contribute in ways I hadn’t considered before.
In 1998 I took a big risk and decided to create a personal xxx website as a platform for my sexual exploration and self-expression. It led me down a pretty unique life path and even though there were dozens, then hundreds, and finally thousands of women, men and couples with their own xxx websites, I did things a little differently from the crowd.
Adult entertainment was just the beginning. Through my real and digital travels, I met all sorts of interesting and diverse people. I learned so much about body image, boundaries, communication, gender dynamics, relationships, marginalization, stigmatization, sexuality, sex worker rights, and ultimately myself.
I’ve always felt driven to share my experiences and knowledge with others so that people could learn from both my challenges and my breakthroughs. What began as a simple independent porn site and form of expression turned into so much more. It became my life’s work for many years— promoting sexual health, pleasure, and empowerment through the exploration of erotica, well-researched insight, real-life experiences, and resources. My personal xxx website is something I’m proud of, but as the economy and the porn landscape changed I became disillusioned. So much of my porn was stolen and shared without my consent. People stopped paying for subscriptions to independent personal porn sites. Members stopped watching weekly webcam shows (one of my favourite things about having a porn site). I lost the means to support myself so I needed to find other ways to pay my bills. The people had moved on so I did too.
In 2010 I retired from porn and took a break from writing about sexuality and relationships to focus on personal development and holistic wellbeing. I studied nutrition for one year, became a Licensed Desire Map Facilitator in 2015 (though I’m on a Facilitator hiatus as I work on some new writing projects) and empowered myself through a more minimalist, intentional and sustainable lifestyle.
I’ve been a burlesque performer since 2003 and I thoroughly enjoyed performing and producing shows while I lived in Montreal. It was a true passion and the friends I made in Miss Sugarpuss and Elle Diabloe changed my life artistically and wholeheartedly. I discovered the comedian in me. I hope we get to collaborate again in 2020.
In 2016 I began working full-time as a sex educator and making ageing and perimenopause the focus of my writing and coaching work. I see it as a continuation of my work in sexuality and wellbeing across the lifespan. As I experience it, I share my thoughts about it and try to be of service to others.
For the past year, I’ve been having dreams about returning to the world of porn. I wasn’t exactly sure what my subconscious was trying to tell me. I did a bunch of journaling and pondering which led me to want to explore what it would look like to make and share xxx content now. So here I am opening up my vault of vintage Amateur porn and yes, creating NEW CONTENT for my fans.
I want to connect with my super Seska fans who want to get up close and personal with me once again or for the first time.