Reflections on Live Cam Shows

I am so glad I decided to do live camming at therealseska.cammodels.com. I have 1 week of shows under my belt and while I have some sore muscles and nether regions my spirits are high. I’ve found a satisfying way to support myself. I will be honest, it is such a relief.

I have been worried since I began my porn comeback that I wouldn't find my rhythm in the new (to me) service oriented sphere of online adult entertainment. I knew I was comfortable and confident with the work when I ran my personal porn website and later when I was an in-person service provider. However, since March 2020 I have struggled to find ways to translate this experience to the current sex industry.

I think I feel this way because at first I focused on services via fan sites. Sexting and exchanging pics and video through messages on a fan site didn’t allow for any kind of flow. It felt very stilted, reactive, and pressured.

Due to different time zones and lifestyles fans messaged when I was asleep and I messaged when fans were asleep. If our timing did happen to match I didn’t have at the ready the very specific content they were seeking. It was awkward. I hated disappointing them. And to be honest, I hated leaving money on the table. I deeply want my 50s to be my best decade as a sex worker— physically, emotionally, and financially.

Why Live Camming Makes Sense For Me

The live cam show platform Streamate has the infrastructure that allows for me to go online in ways that suit my schedule and there is a viewership right then and there. The wonderful thing is this is from traffic I don’t have to work night and day for. 

The amount of hustle required to promote fan site subscriptions (and even this site) is so time consuming. I don’t know if fans know that these sites have little or no (in the case of Only Fans) traffic of their own. Our income is dependent on our own social media promotion to find paying subscribers. This means we have to spend much of our time on promotion of our content rather than making content. 

I am relying on memory as well as my journals but I would say the ratio of time spent creating and connecting with paying customers versus marketing and traffic is reversed from my work experiences in the 2000s to those of today. 

What I have come to realize though is with live camming I can focus on pleasure and connection.  Viewers pop into my room and make a quick assessment if they fancy me and then things progress in a playful and sexy manner if there is a connection. My main role and activities are what I want them to be. 

Me as a sensualist, pleasure seeker, and pleasure giver.

Cam To Cam

I knew I would be very comfortable in my public chatroom . I am a talkative person and have a friendly and sweet disposition (online anyway— in person I am much more reserved and introverted)  which is well suited for the chatroom experience. 

When I began though I was concerned I wouldn’t enjoy cam to cam but it turns out I adore it.

I didn’t take into consideration my years of experience as an in-person service provider for adult men and women of all ages and physical appearances. I am very comfortable with strangers’ naked bodies and their sexual behaviour. After retiring in 2016 I somehow forgot that about me.

Maybe this is the pandemic talking but I find it erotically thrilling to watch the men jerk off as they watched me play with myself. 

Would I do Cam To Cam for free? No. Part of my erotic thrill is being paid for my sexual expression. Without it I am not inspired in the same way by the experience. 

So it seems with Cam to Cam I have found my way back to sex work that suits me. If you want to enjoy some private time with me or even just chat for a bit you can find me on Thursdays, Fridays and Saturdays 7am-11am EST at therealseska.cammodels.com.